July 6, 2015

Hi Dad,

It was so good to be able to talk face to face last night. It really helped me a lot. I wish I could have recorded some of the things you said. I know you guys are all there to help me and I am looking forward to strengthening my testimony with your help. 

Yeah, Hermana Reyes has been so awesome with me. I know it´s been really hard on her at times, but she is so good. Pres. Boswell also has been so good. I asked him last night if I would be able to keep in contact with him and let him know how I am doing, and he said that he will always be my mission president, that made me feel really good. 

I think the hardest part of all this is that I will have to email all the people from my district in the MTC, and that will be hard because it won't be face to face. But I am definitely going to support them while they are all still out. 

Sis. Brown emailed me and said that they all love me and support me and are excited to see me when I get home, that really meant a lot to me. So tell them thanks for me next time you see them please. 

June 15, 2015 Joy of the Gospel

Hey dad,

Thanks for the scriptures (Helaman 5:45-48 & Proverbs 4:26) and the talk (from John Bytheway). It was really good to be able to talk with you and mom and Lynell on Friday. I am so thankful for all of your support in whatever decision I make. I told this to mom as well but thought you would like to read my words as well. I was walking on Sunday, and I had the clearest thought come to my mind. It is okay to go home. I felt peaceful and content, and knew that it didn't matter what other people thought or said about me going home early. I still want to fast, I am going to tomorrow, but I think that was the answer to my prayers. I have been praying constantly about going home or staying here. And like I said, I felt so peaceful when that thought came to my mind. Before when I have thought about going home, my mind is all over the place and I don´t know what to do, but this just felt right. I know that you and mom will support me no matter what, and I thank you for that so much. Pres. Boswell said he won´t force me to stay here, and I know that he will respect the decision I make. I feel good about this dad, like I said, I will still fast about it, but I think I have finally gotten an answer to my prayers. I love you so much.

Kayla

June 15, 2015

Hey mom,

Saturday night we had the adult session of stake conference, and I understood almost everything. Then Sunday morning we had the general session. I'm pretty sure I understood basically everything, just maybe some words here and there. It was really good. Hermana Reyes and I taught a lesson with an investigator Saturday, Vanessa. It was the third lesson Hma. Reyes has had with her. This time, Reyes talked about repentance and I talked about baptism. Hma. Reyes invited her to be baptized, and she said yes. 

Mom, I have been thinking a lot after I talked with you guys, and I am so thankful that you are all so supportive of whatever decision I choose. Yesterday, we were walking back to Hermana Roxana's house, and I had the clearest thought I have ever had. It was along the lines of, it is okay to go home. I felt totally at peace with it, and I wasn't nervous about what people would say or think. I would still like to fast about it being an answer to my prayers, I was thinking of fasting tomorrow, Tuesday. I know that everything will be okay. I just want to be assured that you and dad the rest of the family will understand if I decide to come home. I have been praying about it constantly for a week. I think yesterday I finally got my answer. Thanks for understanding everything mom, I love you so much. Kayla